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[Oh.

That's...

oh.]

You're very kind, Kitagawa-san. And very passionate. I can't help but admire that. I hope I can live up to that.

These are the ones I have on hand, from my world.

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GirlinCherryBlossoms.png
ShrineofDolls.png
ShadowOnABeach.png
BrideBeforeDresser.png
ShrineOfTheEphemeral
ShadowOnABoat.png
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[Are those spirits captured in the photos?? Yes. Yes they are.

It's fine, don't worry about it.]

[It takes Yusuke a long time to respond, because he's so startled by what he sees as he goes through each photo. They're haunting, dark, devoid of life and colour... but also beautiful in their own ways.

But the pale figures in the photos-- he has to go through them again and again just to make sure he isn't imagining things.]

These have not been altered in any way?

No. The camera I use is rather antique, though, from the early 1800s I think. The photos sometimes turn out a little grainy because of it.

[She knows he sees them, but:]

The mountain I lived on was a scene of a lot of death. Sometimes those left behind linger.

Are they no good?

No, they're beautiful. I simply didn't realise this was quite what you meant when you said "post-mortem photography" -- I've never seen anything like it.

I’m sorry. I wasn’t trying to trick you. Most people don’t believe in these sorts of things, even with evidence. The type of post-mortem photography I talked about is a little less strange than saying “I can see and take pictures of spirits.”

I didn't want you to think I was too weird.

I know each of those spirits. I don’t think they’d mind too much if their pictures were on display. [Okay Shiragiku in the doll shrine would probably have quite a few snarky things to say, but she always did, so that didn’t count.]

I guess I just wanted a friend? Either way, I shouldn’t have lied. Sorry.

[Even if it was less lying and more just. Obscuring the truth.]

I understand why you might hesitate to reveal such things to others, but it's all right. I would be honoured to be friends with you.

Can you tell me more? Can you commune with the spirits, as well as being able to see them?

[It's weird telling people about these abilities. She'd hid it for so long wanting to be normal, but Hisoka had made a living off of it and everything else... Trying to get her to accept it all...

She takes a breath and begins to type. Typing is much easier, at least.]

I don't mind.

If I have a picture of something or someone, or something connected with them, I can find anything. For example, if I have someone's note they've written, I can track them down. Same with their picture of them, or something they wore a lot. I can read the secrets of items like that.

I can see or speak to spirits. If I touch a spirit, I experience their deaths as if it was happening to me. Everything they thought or saw or felt. I take the pain of their death from them. It exorcises their spirit and usually allows them to move on.

Unfortunately it can extend to the living as well. I can't always control it, but sometimes if I touch people I experience their worst memories too. And I can generally read peoples
emotions.

It makes moonlacing difficult. Most people don't want to take that risk. But I have a bracelet now, from that mission before, that stops that ability from happening.

[She's pretty sure she's covered everything...]

I see... I think I understand now. You surely must have carried a heavy burden, to possess such an ability, and take on the experiences of so many others... I can't imagine what that must be like.

I'm glad you have a bracelet to help you. But if moonlacing is still a difficulty, by all means, please come to me. I will help you whenever you are in need.

You don't have to force yourself, Kitagawa-san.

The moonlacing here is difficult for me to begin with. I'm not used to touching people, so I just keep expecting to be hurt every time I try. It's just a slow process trying to get used to it. But every time I touch someone and it doesn't hurt me, it gets a little easier.

I'm not forcing myself. I would genuinely like to help. But, if it is a gradual process for you, I agree it is best that you do it at your own pace.

In any case, I can submit these photos on your behalf. Assuming the gallery is happy to accept them, I will give you all the information once the exhibition is given the go-ahead. Is that all right?

If you don't see it as forcing yourself, than I don't mind the help. I like you. [It's easier to say that sort of thing on text when you don't have to look the person in the face.]

Yes, that's fine. Please let me know when it's all going to be set-up. I'll help in any way I can.

I shall. Likewise, please let me know whenever you are in difficulty in regards to chroma acquisition. I will always be willing to help you.

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